30 Weeks :):):)

Just keep smiling, smiling, smiling... That's what I tell myself... I have not many days at all that I just am done with it all... Today is not one of those days, I am so over it... It's been a rough day... Just very agitated with anything and everything... I think part of the reason is that it is my last work week for two weeks, as we make a quick trip north... The other part is Baby S was doing some crazy things that quite frankly hurt me and scare me at the same time... After that passed, I just feel defeated today... I had a pout session and have pretty much carried that through tonight... BUT when it is all said and done and we watch this little man moving and shifting around I can't help but feel quilty for feeling this way... I have LOVED being pregnant, each day seems like an actual new day/feeling/sensation!!.. Nothing beats when I start feeling and seeing him move and then Shawn runs over and watches and smiles and talks to him and rubs him, NOTHING beats that... I am totally going to miss those moments because I know how lucky I am to experience them... So with that said am I wishing the time away NO, I cherish it all, some days are just easier to get through than others.. Am I sick of the odd pains & of being scared of something, absolutely... I am even more sick of hearing, "Not too much longer", my response OKAY well if you consider two & a half more months "not much longer" in 100 degree weather than you are nuts... And could I just literally karate chop someone to the throat if I hear "WOW you're huge" one more time... What completely surprises me about this statement is the fact that every single one has come from a woman... Soooo not girl code!! Anyways no baby facts this week, just don't have it in me... He's doing great and very active and draining me... That's it, just done today!!...